e
m
P
t
Y
Tried to take a picture Of love
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
Lee Rachel.
Eunos ChungChengHighMain St.Andrew'sJuniorCollege
Emptied since 24OCTOBER1993 in a nice nice hospital.
My email is something you never would want to know and even if you did,
it is definately something you should have deleted instantly.
I love to read, to fill myself up with words. I love to listen, to fill myself up with music. Yet, i am still EMPTY.
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
The Girl
-the emptied hearted-
Lee Rachel.
Emptied since 24OCTOBER1993 in a nice nice hospital.
My email is something you never would want to know and even if you did,
it is definately something you should have deleted instantly.
I love to read, to fill myself up with words. I love to listen, to fill myself up with music. Yet, i am still EMPTY.
I've tried to write a letter. In ink
I've got a peice of paper. But it's Empty
I've got a peice of paper. But it's Empty
The Story
The Date: Wednesday, December 30, 2009 ( 11:55:00 PM )
Event of the day: Lynette meeting into her conductor in Chung Cheng!!
haha. 2 more weeks left to release of O level results. scared... I wonder what will happen!!! Anyway, went back to ChungCheng today. and yah yah blah blah. got caught!!! ARH!! worse, when they release that we have graduated, they chased us out. Why are you all so welcoming to visitors? (apparently fake..) and then when it came to graduates and alumni, you always chase us out? Maybe because you know that you didn't treat us well, thus you are afraid that we will do something bad to the school. enlighten me please, someone? Anyone? What happen to the "You will always be part of the ChungCheng family." or wait, don't tell me you chase your family members out too?
"i give you all 15 minutes! At 1045, you all are to leave the school?!" what the? or is it because we are not in school uniform? Wait, hello, I saw more than one person in total home clothes PLUS not in shoes in school today. Are they all warned by you to leave the school or maybe they have special invitation. Wait, i think there was a girl in home clothes that entered school and said that she was here to buy books. Please explain these to me. No discrimination to anyone or my school(which has a reputation to maintain) which 'sadly' i have graduated from. yah, sadly...
Anyway, other than these unpleasant thingys... we went to band... our new conductor and her assistant, Miss Xia and Mr Ong...!! ARH!!! Feel really excited that we have got a new conductor which have led several band to good reputations!!! eg. TKGS, a very very very strong band!! I hope that our band would be able to improve tremendously and produce good results soon. Looking forward to seeing the band RISE!!! haha. no falling allowed!! I heard she is strict... so GOOD!
then went to MR WONG's house at Bournea Vista (or somewhere along... i don't know how to spell...) with Lynette, XueYing, MeiXin and ChongJinthen we sat there and listen to music... expecting something.... but in the end, there was nothing much. so we left at 1730 for the BBQ at punggol!!!
haha.... it was fun fun FUN FUN FUN !!! Lynette mixed in quite well, hope she didn't feel left out!!! haha. Nice food and people, except for some spoilers!!! haix, you can always chose to not come de... no one really expect you to come!!! haha. whatever... FUN FUN !!! haha! whee!!!
Funny day!!! Yet, both Lynette and I agree that the event of the day was when we realise that the new band conductor was Miss Xia!!! great shock for her especially because .....(this is a secret!!!) :)
The Date:Saturday, December 26, 2009 ( 1:37:00 PM )
First... on the 24December2009, 1440hr,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JAMIE!!!
haha...
then on the following day, 25December2009...
MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE!!!
haha. I wish you a merry christmas, i wish you a merry christmas, i wish you a merry chirstmas and a happy new year!!! YEAH!!! haha.... towards 2010!!!
The Date:Saturday, December 19, 2009 ( 12:03:00 AM )
Whee... Friday... still so many many many days till release of O level results.
End of another long long and dreadful week.... HELP!!
I kind of like staying at home alone though... its fun... haha. I like staying at home then going out... its more cooling at home too!!! haha...
Hopes time would pass faster. Does anyone understand?? haha... X)
The Date:Wednesday, December 16, 2009 ( 11:53:00 AM )
Yesterday.Tuesday.15december2009
the many many days before O level result is released. haha. whee~~
went to bugis street again.. haha. i think i went there like over 3 times in 2 weeks. is it a lot? i think so leh. haha. However, i was suppose to be eating ice-cream yeaterday... when are we going for our ice-cream buffet?! haha. i can't wait!! then shop lor at bugis street with XiaoLin. Looked for shoes and shirts. XiaoLin even want to buy dresses!! and and our style clashs!! we have different taste. She bought a green shirt which she really liked for some reason and she changed into it like almost instantly... haha. It was fun to shop with her really. haha. She even have the habit of asking the shop keeper if the shirt suits her!! i mean they will surely say suit right? haha. After shopping, it rained. So we went to Iluema, to cross the bridge over to Bugis Junction. before that i brought her to the toilet there, where she tried on the clothes that she brought... haha. wait quite long leh... haha.
When we crossed the bridge to Bugis Junction, there was like this door where we have to pull to open if we didn't want to walk in the rain. This guy pulled the door open for his girlfriend i think then we walked in before his girlfriend... i said thank you but i think he was quite displeased... but whatever... i mean it doesn't really matter right? Maybe he is just too stingy... at least i said thank you. You don't expect me to walk in the rain because of you right?? Okay.. wait, maybe i'm thinking too much... haha.
Walked around in Bugis Junction.Wanted to eat Mcdonald's ice-cream but then it was too crowded. so we went to the basement where most of the yummy food are and there, i tried the korean spicy rice cake... It has a rather interesting texture... like a harder version of the nian gao we usually eat during new year... but its white and in the shape of a mini-fish cake. Then, we went to cold storage to buy their nice nice nice sausage and sushi!! haha. it was XiaoLin's first time trying the sausage... then it was walking around the basement to finish our sausage... haha. whee~~ then went home.. it was raining.... haha.
it was really nice to go out with XiaoLin... haha. Funny too. We should go out often... haha. Missed her... Whee~~ miss mostly everyone... haha.
The Date:Monday, December 14, 2009 ( 9:22:00 PM )
Tuesday. 08december2009.
the many days after O level, the first time we went out together...
we ate at SeoulGarden. Proud to say that we were the first to be there... haha. i think it was like 1030? or some where along that timing!!! haha. Eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat... Beef, chicken, NO PORK, fish balls, fish, sotong balls, prawns (which have the same shell as cockroaches), many many many ice, drinks, ice-creams, nesCafe.. and smoke. These eventually led to 5 crazy hungry people becoming 5 bloated and stinky people... SMELLY~~ I think we could be detected from miles away. Having said bye bye to Shuhadah, the rest of us went to watch 2012 again. IT IS REALLY NICE NICE NICE NICE!!! haha. Though i was wondering if anyone who commit suicide if they were sure that the end of the world is near... or after watching the show... Um, considering moving to the cape of good hope.. haha. Is it? Honestly, is the world is really ending in 2012, why am I still studying? haha.
Wednesday. 09december2009.
2nd day of the many days after O level, the first time going out with JiaHui and another irresponsible primary school friend whom name I will not share... haha. I'm so kind.
Have you ever ask someone where they are and they reply you with I'm reaching? haha. Like that answer the question...
"Where are you?".... "I'm reaching soon" or "I'm on the mrt". HELLO, for your information, that doesn't answer my question... there were several things that pissed me off that day because of that friend...
FIRST, didn't really want him to go anyway... you are not that important... Okay, so you want to come along, fine. The movie is at 1335.. you want to reach the place at 1300? Meet at 1200? haha. Funny. Luckily, we didn't wait and meet you... cause the message of the day came... "... I have something important to settle, will meet you all at the cinema at 1320..." So, we were expected to buy the ticket for you... whatever. MADDENING!!!
So whatever, went to buy and shopped around with JiaHui.. Fun!! 1321. No sight of him. This is just like throwing an oxygen tank into the flames... I thought I could see smoke coming out of me. I hate people who are late.. HATE AND DETEST... however, we waited. 1335. Still, no sight of the friend... so i smsed him.
Me: Where are you?
XX: On the train. Don't worry, will not miss any part of the show...
Me:(feeling so angry that I have to wait for him..) Yah right. Where are you?
XX: reaching soon, you all wait for me at the cinema
Me: We are already there... where are you? I want location...
so... I AM SO NEVER GOING TO WATCH ANOTHER FREAKING MOVIE WITH YOU!!! NEVER EVER!!! What the!! So irresponsible. You know, we really didn't even want you to tag along. Can't you sense it? So only you have important stuff is it... I really hoped that you wouldn't come...
Haha. it wasn't the first time anyway. HATE YOU! haha. However, the friend left after the movie (yes!!) and Jia Hui and I had a good time.. walking around, shopping for her black shoes...
04december2009 - 13december2009
Rotting at home... Taking care of my empty house... whee~~
Today, nothing special happened. Though I heard BedokNorth Band playing something... it sounded like MerryWidow for a while... I wonder what they are doing. It made me miss band. Missed Band. All the past incidents, practices, performances... I wonder if they really meant anything to me, to the others. Bad memories stay in mind clearer than the happy ones. Could I have been happier if I had not join band? Would I? Seriously, i wondered what these experiences and memories would mean to me. What do they even mean now? I don't know. Sometimes, it just feel like you have done a lot, or maybe you have done nothing... Who is there to judge anyone? What have anyone to judge someone? How can you determine how much one have contributed? Is it always worth the hardwork and effort? Somehow, these are what I could think of...
And Jamie, I need my popular card back... :] haha. As soon as possible.
The Date:Wednesday, December 2, 2009 ( 10:27:00 PM )
Haha. I believed I stopped rotting for a day. Whee...
Human body is so exciting! It is simple amazing!! Such a tiny little size yet is able to store so many organs, muscles, bones, nerves... everything. Amazed. haha. What would it be like if a human could only live up to 25 of years? Then what age are we going to reproduce? haha!!! Just joking. Had a good time today but my legs are tired... oh poor darling legs!! You could blame Jamie!!! Whee~~~ Maybe we should go again... ... I HEART GIRAFFE!!!
Then, my house de PASA MALAM open le!!! YEAH!!! Anyway, then came something that totally spoiled my mood.... A long-forgotten neighbour came!!! Haha. Like its for any good.... oh, I see. Came to BORROW my books? haha. Like you'd ever return... Not that i'm trying to be mean or maybe i am but, but, WHAT!!! of the year's LONG 365 DAYS, the only day that you'd visit is to BORROW my book? yah, like i'll be so glad to give it to you!!! and so, my SS book 4 and my chinese book dissappeared. You know, i had rather donate it to NTUC!!! I MISS MY BOOKS!!!
haha. yah right. Haha.
Event of the day: Lynette meeting into her conductor in Chung Cheng!!
haha. 2 more weeks left to release of O level results. scared... I wonder what will happen!!! Anyway, went back to ChungCheng today. and yah yah blah blah. got caught!!! ARH!! worse, when they release that we have graduated, they chased us out. Why are you all so welcoming to visitors? (apparently fake..) and then when it came to graduates and alumni, you always chase us out? Maybe because you know that you didn't treat us well, thus you are afraid that we will do something bad to the school. enlighten me please, someone? Anyone? What happen to the "You will always be part of the ChungCheng family." or wait, don't tell me you chase your family members out too?
"i give you all 15 minutes! At 1045, you all are to leave the school?!" what the? or is it because we are not in school uniform? Wait, hello, I saw more than one person in total home clothes PLUS not in shoes in school today. Are they all warned by you to leave the school or maybe they have special invitation. Wait, i think there was a girl in home clothes that entered school and said that she was here to buy books. Please explain these to me. No discrimination to anyone or my school(which has a reputation to maintain) which 'sadly' i have graduated from. yah, sadly...
Anyway, other than these unpleasant thingys... we went to band... our new conductor and her assistant, Miss Xia and Mr Ong...!! ARH!!! Feel really excited that we have got a new conductor which have led several band to good reputations!!! eg. TKGS, a very very very strong band!! I hope that our band would be able to improve tremendously and produce good results soon. Looking forward to seeing the band RISE!!! haha. no falling allowed!! I heard she is strict... so GOOD!
then went to MR WONG's house at Bournea Vista (or somewhere along... i don't know how to spell...) with Lynette, XueYing, MeiXin and ChongJinthen we sat there and listen to music... expecting something.... but in the end, there was nothing much. so we left at 1730 for the BBQ at punggol!!!
haha.... it was fun fun FUN FUN FUN !!! Lynette mixed in quite well, hope she didn't feel left out!!! haha. Nice food and people, except for some spoilers!!! haix, you can always chose to not come de... no one really expect you to come!!! haha. whatever... FUN FUN !!! haha! whee!!!
Funny day!!! Yet, both Lynette and I agree that the event of the day was when we realise that the new band conductor was Miss Xia!!! great shock for her especially because .....(this is a secret!!!) :)
The Date:
First... on the 24December2009, 1440hr,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JAMIE!!!
haha...
then on the following day, 25December2009...
MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE!!!
haha. I wish you a merry christmas, i wish you a merry christmas, i wish you a merry chirstmas and a happy new year!!! YEAH!!! haha.... towards 2010!!!
The Date:
Whee... Friday... still so many many many days till release of O level results.
End of another long long and dreadful week.... HELP!!
I kind of like staying at home alone though... its fun... haha. I like staying at home then going out... its more cooling at home too!!! haha...
Hopes time would pass faster. Does anyone understand?? haha... X)
The Date:
Yesterday.Tuesday.15december2009
the many many days before O level result is released. haha. whee~~
went to bugis street again.. haha. i think i went there like over 3 times in 2 weeks. is it a lot? i think so leh. haha. However, i was suppose to be eating ice-cream yeaterday... when are we going for our ice-cream buffet?! haha. i can't wait!! then shop lor at bugis street with XiaoLin. Looked for shoes and shirts. XiaoLin even want to buy dresses!! and and our style clashs!! we have different taste. She bought a green shirt which she really liked for some reason and she changed into it like almost instantly... haha. It was fun to shop with her really. haha. She even have the habit of asking the shop keeper if the shirt suits her!! i mean they will surely say suit right? haha. After shopping, it rained. So we went to Iluema, to cross the bridge over to Bugis Junction. before that i brought her to the toilet there, where she tried on the clothes that she brought... haha. wait quite long leh... haha.
When we crossed the bridge to Bugis Junction, there was like this door where we have to pull to open if we didn't want to walk in the rain. This guy pulled the door open for his girlfriend i think then we walked in before his girlfriend... i said thank you but i think he was quite displeased... but whatever... i mean it doesn't really matter right? Maybe he is just too stingy... at least i said thank you. You don't expect me to walk in the rain because of you right?? Okay.. wait, maybe i'm thinking too much... haha.
Walked around in Bugis Junction.Wanted to eat Mcdonald's ice-cream but then it was too crowded. so we went to the basement where most of the yummy food are and there, i tried the korean spicy rice cake... It has a rather interesting texture... like a harder version of the nian gao we usually eat during new year... but its white and in the shape of a mini-fish cake. Then, we went to cold storage to buy their nice nice nice sausage and sushi!! haha. it was XiaoLin's first time trying the sausage... then it was walking around the basement to finish our sausage... haha. whee~~ then went home.. it was raining.... haha.
it was really nice to go out with XiaoLin... haha. Funny too. We should go out often... haha. Missed her... Whee~~ miss mostly everyone... haha.
The Date:
Tuesday. 08december2009.
the many days after O level, the first time we went out together...
we ate at SeoulGarden. Proud to say that we were the first to be there... haha. i think it was like 1030? or some where along that timing!!! haha. Eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat... Beef, chicken, NO PORK, fish balls, fish, sotong balls, prawns (which have the same shell as cockroaches), many many many ice, drinks, ice-creams, nesCafe.. and smoke. These eventually led to 5 crazy hungry people becoming 5 bloated and stinky people... SMELLY~~ I think we could be detected from miles away. Having said bye bye to Shuhadah, the rest of us went to watch 2012 again. IT IS REALLY NICE NICE NICE NICE!!! haha. Though i was wondering if anyone who commit suicide if they were sure that the end of the world is near... or after watching the show... Um, considering moving to the cape of good hope.. haha. Is it? Honestly, is the world is really ending in 2012, why am I still studying? haha.
Wednesday. 09december2009.
2nd day of the many days after O level, the first time going out with JiaHui and another irresponsible primary school friend whom name I will not share... haha. I'm so kind.
Have you ever ask someone where they are and they reply you with I'm reaching? haha. Like that answer the question...
"Where are you?".... "I'm reaching soon" or "I'm on the mrt". HELLO, for your information, that doesn't answer my question... there were several things that pissed me off that day because of that friend...
FIRST, didn't really want him to go anyway... you are not that important... Okay, so you want to come along, fine. The movie is at 1335.. you want to reach the place at 1300? Meet at 1200? haha. Funny. Luckily, we didn't wait and meet you... cause the message of the day came... "... I have something important to settle, will meet you all at the cinema at 1320..." So, we were expected to buy the ticket for you... whatever. MADDENING!!!
So whatever, went to buy and shopped around with JiaHui.. Fun!! 1321. No sight of him. This is just like throwing an oxygen tank into the flames... I thought I could see smoke coming out of me. I hate people who are late.. HATE AND DETEST... however, we waited. 1335. Still, no sight of the friend... so i smsed him.
Me: Where are you?
XX: On the train. Don't worry, will not miss any part of the show...
Me:(feeling so angry that I have to wait for him..) Yah right. Where are you?
XX: reaching soon, you all wait for me at the cinema
Me: We are already there... where are you? I want location...
so... I AM SO NEVER GOING TO WATCH ANOTHER FREAKING MOVIE WITH YOU!!! NEVER EVER!!! What the!! So irresponsible. You know, we really didn't even want you to tag along. Can't you sense it? So only you have important stuff is it... I really hoped that you wouldn't come...
Haha. it wasn't the first time anyway. HATE YOU! haha. However, the friend left after the movie (yes!!) and Jia Hui and I had a good time.. walking around, shopping for her black shoes...
04december2009 - 13december2009
Rotting at home... Taking care of my empty house... whee~~
Today, nothing special happened. Though I heard BedokNorth Band playing something... it sounded like MerryWidow for a while... I wonder what they are doing. It made me miss band. Missed Band. All the past incidents, practices, performances... I wonder if they really meant anything to me, to the others. Bad memories stay in mind clearer than the happy ones. Could I have been happier if I had not join band? Would I? Seriously, i wondered what these experiences and memories would mean to me. What do they even mean now? I don't know. Sometimes, it just feel like you have done a lot, or maybe you have done nothing... Who is there to judge anyone? What have anyone to judge someone? How can you determine how much one have contributed? Is it always worth the hardwork and effort? Somehow, these are what I could think of...
And Jamie, I need my popular card back... :] haha. As soon as possible.
The Date:
Haha. I believed I stopped rotting for a day. Whee...
Human body is so exciting! It is simple amazing!! Such a tiny little size yet is able to store so many organs, muscles, bones, nerves... everything. Amazed. haha. What would it be like if a human could only live up to 25 of years? Then what age are we going to reproduce? haha!!! Just joking. Had a good time today but my legs are tired... oh poor darling legs!! You could blame Jamie!!! Whee~~~ Maybe we should go again... ... I HEART GIRAFFE!!!
Then, my house de PASA MALAM open le!!! YEAH!!! Anyway, then came something that totally spoiled my mood.... A long-forgotten neighbour came!!! Haha. Like its for any good.... oh, I see. Came to BORROW my books? haha. Like you'd ever return... Not that i'm trying to be mean or maybe i am but, but, WHAT!!! of the year's LONG 365 DAYS, the only day that you'd visit is to BORROW my book? yah, like i'll be so glad to give it to you!!! and so, my SS book 4 and my chinese book dissappeared. You know, i had rather donate it to NTUC!!! I MISS MY BOOKS!!!
haha. yah right. Haha.
They should have filled in.
The memories when you told me. But it's Empty
The memories when you told me. But it's Empty
tagboard
i think they call it freedom of speech
Maybe we tried
Tried too hard and now, we're torn apart
Empathy0809
Crazy Jamie
JiaHui
XinYi
ShiJie
March 2009
April 2009
September 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
October 2010
designer DancingSheep
Tried too hard and now, we're torn apart
The Fillings
shouldn't they be in me?
Empathy0809
Crazy Jamie
JiaHui
XinYi
ShiJie
the EMPTIED jars
what i tried to fill
March 2009
April 2009
September 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
October 2010
credits
designer DancingSheep
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts; We're Empty
Life is short, break the rules, forgive sooner, love with true love, laugh without control and always keep smiling. Maybe life is not the party that we were expecting, but in the mean time, we're here and we can still dance. We, should always live like there is no tomorrow.
I'll think about how happy and contented I'd be if I lost everything and then have it back.
CONCLUSION: a place where you simply got tired of thinking
Is beating our hearts; We're Empty
Year 2010: the feelings and quotes
to all the unknowns ahead
Life is short, break the rules, forgive sooner, love with true love, laugh without control and always keep smiling. Maybe life is not the party that we were expecting, but in the mean time, we're here and we can still dance. We, should always live like there is no tomorrow.
I'll think about how happy and contented I'd be if I lost everything and then have it back.
CONCLUSION: a place where you simply got tired of thinking