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The Story

The Date: Wednesday, April 8, 2009 ( 7:26:00 PM )

whee~ SYF results are OUT. SILVER. why!?

Tutor, you lie de. only wanted to console us i think. but its okay. I think we need to know the truth next time. giving us high hopes make us fall deeper, hurting more. To seniors and Tutor, kindda feel that we disappointed you. We were in a mess. Our INTONATION was DISGUSTING. Eee.... you should have told us earlier. XD but still... thanks for the meal today. haha. [-_-]

Disappointed. that is the only word to describe how i felt. Those tears which were meant to be tears of joys, turned out to be disappointment.. touched with everyones' performance. most did not achieve their best, but i think most tried their best. and only leaders are to blame. it is all our fault. we did not lead the band well. with all those past stupid conflicts and stuffs. how is it even possible for us? And now, all we can leave the band with is JUST A SILVER. However, SILVER is not nothing. it might just be a lesson that arrived too late. too late to change anything. so yepps, we can only settle for a SILVER.

And, to think of it, i think we only deserve a silver, though it hurts to admit. Listen to the recording. haix. yet now its not the time to point fingers nor is it the time to blame yourself. Think, now, how are you going to improve yourself, your section, the band?

I hope the future leaders will do a far better job in bonding the band. NO MORE CONFLICTS. it is impossible to let go. all of us have to admit. to forgive and forget is NOT easy. you say you forgive but deep down, you know, you will never trust this person again. So whats the use? NOTHING...

There will be no regrets. There should be no regrets. If we did our best, whats there to regret? But the thing is did we? no. Because we have regrets. like not having to solve the notes and articulation and blah blah blah of the piece earlier but who's to blame? the leaders? the band? everyone. its like if you push a glass bottle that is on a table, it falls and shatters. Do you blame yourself for using too much force OR do you blame the bottle for not stopping, blaming the friction, blaming the bottle being made up of glass? it is everything that adds up that leads to the falling, the breaking of the bottle. yet there are something which could not be help. just like friction, how could you have controlled it to make it prevent the bottle from dropping. this might be a bad example but. neh. its okay if you understand what i want to say. We might have tried better at the last few practices but that was never enough. And now it would never be.

SILVER. Is that whats going to satisfy us? Our goal, the GOLD. GOLD is never equals to SILVER. Could we have gotten a gold if we were a few days earlier? that would be a question that there will never be an answer. Are we a gold band, unfortunately given a silver? Who knows? Are we just lacking luck? Frankly, all this doesn't matter. We have got a silver. and that is what people look at. SILVER.

i look forward to the debrief from Mr. Wong. and the comments form the judges. Why? and what did we did or not did that eventually led to us being a SILVER band again.

People, seriously, it is time to wake up. Please know when and where to be serious. Please know what is right and what's wrong. However, please, just continue as per normal if you think that you had nothing to do with our SILVER when we could have gotten a GOLD. Continue and stay where you are. Don't change, if its what your opinions are all that you only care about.

A silver earned, a lesson learnt. it is the efforts that most have put in to even manage to earn this. Like Tutor said. Its not their fault but the whole band's fault.

4 years in Chung Cheng High (Main) Band. Several Competitions. ALL SILVER. ALL. SILVER. disappointment. these will be the SILVER AGE of band. haha. i wonder when the golden age will arrive...