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The Story

The Date: Saturday, April 4, 2009 ( 11:18:00 PM )

okayokay. just realised i forgot to write about a big issue. haha. should i?

First i want to say that i am NOT AT ALL PROUD THAT THESE STUPID AND DISTURBING THINGS HAPPENED AND THAT I AM NOT BLOGGING TO SHOW THESE OFF. I AM JUST VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY UNHAPPY ABOUT THIS INCIDENT AND FIGURED THAT BLOGGING IS A WAY TO RELIEVE MY ANGER. SO IF YOU WANT TO THINK SO MUCH INTO IT, IT IS YOUR OWN PROBLEM. I WILL NOT MENTION ANY NAME THOUGH OUT THIS WHOLE POST OTHER THAN MY FRIENDS' NAME. SO EVEN IF YOU KNOW WHO IT IS, KEEP IT IN YOUR MIND. i think more than half the class also dont know that i did that trigger it cause the reason is so ABSURD!!!

okay. what is personal attack? let me check out google...A personal attack is committed when a person substitutes abusive remarks for evidence when attacking another person's claim or claims. This line of "reasoning" is fallacious because the attack is directed at the person making the claim and not the claim itself. The truth value of a claim is independent of the person making the claim. After all, no matter how repugnant an individual might be, he or she can still make true claims. so, this is what personal attack means. so did i really make the mistake?
SHE called me out of class during other teachers' lesson,when i was about to have a test. SHE wanted to hold her stuffs and carry it down so that we can "talk", which i refuse to and went down. "Why are you always targetting my row?" please tell me that that was very hurtful. well, I am 'sorry' but IN MY OPINION it is NOT.

So that stupid and meaningless sentence was the trigger for the following disturbing signs. That remark was being treated like a hurtful and a serious personal attack on HER. so, she was angry... @ ME for saying something so casual. something that meant to be a joke. IRRITATINg. so that was not the worst. the whole class started singing a birthday song. NOTE ITS WHOLE CLASS. then she only SHOUTED at ME to keep quiet and shut up. SHE DID. DONT REMEMBER CAN ASK THE CLASS. then for the rest of the lesson she was LIKE THAT. SUPER DUPER DE BIASED AGAINST ME. like when XXX was talking, she said to her nicely, "XXX, can you please keep quiet?" then when it was me, she shouted, "RACHEL, CAN YOU KEEP QUIET/SHUT UP!!!!" and also super minor stuffs like "CAN YOU PLEASE FACE THE FRONT, HOW MANY TIMES DO YOU WANT ME TO TELL YOU!!(when she only told me once.)"note the different in the font, feel the different expression. WHAT THE HELL!!! YOU DON'T TREAT ME LIKE THAT. I AM NOT YOUR DOG OR WHAT SO EVER. so, i figured, you don't respect me. thus DON'T EXPECT ANY RESPECT IN RETURN.

just when you think everything has ended. NO, it had just been building up.

oh, then i think WE saw you rolling your eyes at me and said, "i'm not going to talk to you" after i asked when you want to meet me after you said you wanted to talk to me. SPOT THE IRONY!!! yos, once again, i HATE it when people treat me like that. What rights do you have to do this to me? FYI, throwing your stuffs or banging your stuffs on the table, haha. thats a joke. what, you think i can't do that, i just LOVED my things too much. and come on, i dare you to check my work and the rest of the class, some people might not even have done the class work when i always complete it. haha. WELL, MOST PEOPLE CAN SEE THAT YOU ARE SUPER AGAINST ME!!! WAKE UP!!!!!

THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND YOU. haha. where did that come from? SHE started with that. why can't i remember the rest? opps, i am so sorry. i think it went the other way. oh, oh, then SHE went on. after she help me decide that i can excuse myself from my next lesson and the coming test after informing the teacher to talk to me. haha. yea!! don't need do test, can't be any 'happier'. The talk was useless. wait, see, in the whole conversation, she went "IN MY OPINION" you are rude la... blah blah blah. So, actually when she said that THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND ME, it is beacuse it REVOLVES AROUND HER. HER OPININOS AFFECTS THE WHEATHER, THE WIND DIRECTION, WHERE THE SUN SETS AND EVERYTHING. REMEMBER, THE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND HER. HER OPINIONS ARE THE ONE THE MATTER. so if i murder someone, and IN HER OPINION i didn't, I DIDN'T MURDER ANYONE. whee~~

that was not the worst yet. PART I ended and i went back up class. 5 minutes later, she came up and asked for me again. yes yes ASKED. and i WAS PASSED TO HER. WITHOUT MY CONSENT, MY BODY WAS REQUIRED TO MEET HER. yep, i have no RIGHTS to talk about. in school, whatever you say, i have to do. so please, i wait for the day you say, jump and i jump off the building and never to have to go through what you made me. the MENTAL TORTURE. Please say it soon, since i have no right, i will do as you say, master...Don't always make yourself the victim. PART II came. YOU DIDN"T TRUST ME!!!
"i just wanted to check that you really have a test now. Are you sure you didn't know that the test is at the later part of the class?" like duh, how i know what the teacher plans. haha. then SHE ask for what truce... then SHE wanted me to write it down. COME ON IF YOU DO NOT TRUST ME EVEN THE SLIGHTEST, DON'T FORCE YOURSELF. I DO NOT TRUST YOU. I AM FRIGHTENED THAT I WILL FAIL THE SUBJECT. HOW CAN A TEACHER NOT TRUST A STUDENT WHO DOES THE WORK? HOW CAN THERE BE SUCH LITTLE TRUST BETWEEN TWO PEOPLE?

I am not apologetic. up till now still no. there wouldn't be a SORRY from me. Go on, tell the whole staff room. make yourself the victim me the IN YOUR OPINION the rude and disrespectful girl. it is a fact that you have been calling people in my row and i can't believe that you could get all work up over a causal statement. A person too sensitive will never be happy. Do you even have a true friend whom you trust? From the way you react, it seemed like you don't. Oh, and you know, you did row your eyes at me and only ME!! THE OTHERS SAW IT TOO. I have never in my short life seen anyone that's like you. Like you, refuses to accept the truth cause it is bad for you thus hating anyone that tells you the truth. So, continue living in YOUR OPINION. you know you did roll your eyes. if not i think there is something wrong with your nerves. I HOPE YOU READ THIS. I WANT TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER FOGET YOU. NEVER FORGET THE INCIDENTS. NEVER!! SO DON'T SAY THINGS LIKE LET PUT IT BEHIND US. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE. VERY IMPOSSIBLE.

TO ME, RESPECT IS A TWO WAY ROAD. BEING THE TEACHER, THE EDUCATOR, YOU SHOULD FIRST SHOW ME SOME BASIC RESPECT BEFORE YOU EVEN WANT ME TO RESPECT YOU. YOU DON'T DEMAND REASPECT, YOU EARN IT. I DON'T NEED YOUR TRUST. IF BECAUSE OF MY PERSONALITY THAT I GET INTO TROUBLE IN THE FUTURE, IT WILL NEVER CONCERN YOU. NEVER. YOU ARE NOT ANGRIER THAN ME. DONT SAY THAT. AND TO TELL YOU, EVEN MY PARENTS, THOSE THAT GAVE ME MY LIFE, THAT LOVED AND CARE FOR ME DON'T POINT THEIR FINGERS AT ME. SO DON'T YOU DARE. THAT, TO EVERYONE IS JUST PLAIN DISRESPECTFUL. ARGH!!!!

please... tell me why i have to endure these??? but, maybe it is all because she is the teacher and I and the student with no rights.